A Month of BEING

This month is ending.

It is snowing steadily today. What I like about the snow is that it softens everything and quiets the world. After a month that has held so much movement, emotion, and change, this stillness brings tranquility.

February has been a month of a lot.

A lot of highs and lows. A lot of passion and overwhelm. A lot of joy, stress, rest, and recalibration. A lot of building trust in myself around what I can hold and what I no longer want to carry.

I navigated moments of overwhelm alongside moments of deep calm. I had days where everything felt heavy, followed by days where I felt grounded and steady. A friend recently reflected that I looked like a sea of calm in her presence and seemed confident in my craft.

I co-hosted my first event. The participants received more from the experience than I anticipated. We were grounded. We were seen. We were connected. That experience confirmed there is a real need for what I offer and a place for it to live.

I participated in my first vendor show. Though I was unprepared, my presence mattered. I took notes. I learned. I spoke with people who were genuinely interested in my work. I shared my vision for a retreat I am planning later this year and received excitement and encouragement.

I have also been working on something that feels deeply aligned: a year-long event series called The Cycle of Self. Beginning in April, I will be hosting monthly gatherings through December, followed by a winter series that honors a slower, more inward season. This work feels meaningful in a way that is new for me. I feel connected to my creative portal for the first time in a long time.

Not by doing more, but by listening more. By respecting my body. By honoring my energy. By making decisions that support sustainability instead of survival.

One of those decisions was stepping away from work that no longer aligned with where I am headed. That boundary was not easy. It was emotional, and it was necessary. Choosing myself in that way strengthened my self-trust. I am building confidence. Standing taller. Becoming more aligned both physically and emotionally.

This month has been about being. Being present. Being honest. Being open. Being vulnerable. Being grateful. Being proud of who I am becoming.

I am rooted. I am listening. I am alive. I am loved.

The more I get to know my True Self, the more I feel a deep appreciation for my existence. For the vastness of the universe. For how many things had to unfold as they did for me to be here, in this body, in this moment, doing this work. Every choice, every ending, every pause, every moment of courage and retreat has allowed my True Self to emerge. She is no longer hidden or waiting.

She is here. She is awake. And that is enough.